Temporality

Temporality is a brief from my installation, video, and sculpture route at college. We had to think about what things in life are temporary, analyse different angles and perspectives then choose a topic to focus on. I've decided to focus on the human body, mainly on the chest, heart and lungs; and with this I have developed it further into focusing on breathing.
I thought to myself, how would I be able to capture breathing within my work? How would I be able to show this process in a video? This is when my college tutor suggested to video myself breathing, trying out different methods. All in all there were a few suggestions, one of which to video my chest expanding and contracting. I thought the best way to do this would be to video the top half of my back, so I think the best way to do this is to have a bare back, and to film it in the privacy of my bedroom.
So I put the timer on the video so that I can get into place and not get any other body parts in the shot that I would be embarrassed about when it came to showing my tutor what I had done during the half term. So I press the start button and quickly get into place; everything seemed to be going to plan, this was until half way through me showing how stupidly deep I breathe I realise that I didn't really think about how I was going to stop the video. I end up thinking my best bet is to pull the covers over myself and drag myself to the side so then I can turn the camera off without getting in the shot.
I decided to watch a replay of the video, just to check that the first part of the video was a-ok, it wasn't til I uploaded it onto the laptop that I realised you can hear Florence and the Machine playing You've Got The Love in the background from where Mini-Pear doesn't realise how stupidly loud the speakers are playing whilst being in the room next door to myself. I thought I might as well carry on watching the video as the rest of the video seemed to be running smoothly, and I could easily edit out the sound of Florence in the background, this wasn't til right at the end of the video when I managed to see that I had left my phone on the bed as I had walked off with the covers. It had looked like a performance, an installation in a way, if I had moved my phone, and realised the music playing in the background I reckon it could have gone a whole lot better.

This is why I should never attempt this method ever again without the help of someone else.

get my lungs sorted!

This is not one of the best weeks for me since the beginning of the year, don't get me wrong it wasn't the worst (that ones probably coming soon) I did have some fun times at the previous weekend. It was just as soon as Monday occured I knew this wasn't the week for me.

I had my first uni interview, to which I was told that my drawing skills weren't that good, and that with the work in my portfolio they would normally suggest a foundation year before going uni, but they said they realised that I was already on one, and so didn't know what to say. Fantastic no? what a way to boost my confidence.

This was only the start as i then had a doctors appointment on Wednesday about why I've had pains in my chest and why my breathing is bad. My asthma nurse came to the realisation, with all the tests I have been doing with my asthma, that my asthma is not the problem and to make an appointment with the doctors, when she could have told me this back in July last year. Apparently for my height, weight, and age my breathing was better than someone that is similar to me without asthma. And that my peak flow, when at its worst was the same as someone without asthma at its best. I suppose thats what you get from the lungs of someone dancing for 14 years. So I now don't know what's actually occuring with my body, but im still holding on to doing my dealing with black market dealers on a new set of lungs.

I also need to come to realise that even though I can't see how much is in my bank account when I pay by my card at the till that it is not never ending. I now have £55 to last me til Feb 26th. This will never happen. So now i have to work stupid amounts to put money back into the account, when i should really be doing work on the 2 topics I got from college during this "independant learning week". When the tutors only want a week off for themselves to relax, what a joke, they expect us to work instead.

I should really get my butt into gear.